I don't want the stolen, stale, leftover food minutes of this life.
"Vitam impendre vero (To stake one's life for the truth)" ~
JJ Carolan, MA, BCBA, CPC
When I was younger, I swore I'd never live a life less ordinary.
Then, life happened. Marriage. Kids. House. Responsibilities. Career. I pulled the Tesla of my life over to the side of the road and parked it on the shoulder, swearing I'd come back for it...
Until life and post partum depression rendered me totally boring and invisible in my own life. I became a ghost, just a vessel serving the needs of the day (and mostly, the needs of my job).
But I'm a Scorpio. I'm born in the Year of the Dragon. There's nothing tame or invisible about me. While my outer shell went about her invisible business, inside of me still shouted the relentless voice of freedom. And one day, I was standing over my daughter's crib again, watching her sleep because I hadn't seen her awake that day... and I knew that something. must. change.
I embarked on the 6 year journey that brought me to right now:
I'm typing this page with my second baby asleep on my lap. I'm gazing out the window of my lakeside cottage, on a Monday. I'm waiting for my 12:00 client to call so we can rock her world... and I've totally enjoyed a cup of coffee instead of sucking it down in the car. I'll pick up my older gal from the bus at 3:30, and we'll read and do homework together instead of sending her to aftercare.
This is an "ordinary" life that to me, is incredibly extraordinary - because I don't to ask anyone's permission to be with my children. To pee. To eat lunch. To take the time to make wholesome food instead of grabbing whatever packaged shit I can stuff in a lunchbox.
To go on vacation (we do that now! All the time!) without begging for 2 whole weeks.
To write, when I want to. To spend days without checking my email or even looking at Facebook or responding to angry bosses or clients or putting out any fires. To read, to kayak, to pick up my little one early from school and sit by the lake.
I manifested this life over a 6 year journey. It was all on the other side of fear. Fear of "We need my income". Fear of "I won't have enough clients". Fear of "If I ask my boss to go part time, I'll get fired". Ultimately, fear of "I'm not a good enough coach to deliver on my promises".
Because I live and breathe and am alive, and for no other reason than I believe we deserve freedom. We deserve beauty. We deserve to return to the rebellion, the seeking, the exhilaration that still lives inside us, even if its buried under years of living someone else's expectations.
I'm JJ Carolan, and I'm here to help us live these one hundred long years on this earth deeply and fully. To "suck the marrow" out of life, and to die fully satisfied that we lived thoroughly. Where do we start? By overcoming the fear and inner critics that stop us at every turn.
I coach seekers, rebels, and fire-hearted men and women whose lives have taken a turn for the ordinary and who who are ready to dive deep and shed the stories that no longer serve them. Brave people.
As a certified professional coach, I'm here to point you back to the ultimate inner authority - YOU.
To awaken your inner voice, to transform the life you're in. To help you stand in the line of fire and say, "This is MY truth. This has ALWAYS been my truth. And I am speaking my truth at any cost. My own beautiful, bold, inner voice will not rest on its laurels while I squander this one, unique manifestation of life that is me, now."
Could you live another one hundred years exactly like today?
Want to resurrect that relentless voice in you?
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