Yesterday I was hauling along my longest, fastest run yet. It was 5 minutes longer than the one I did last week. And 15 seconds per minute faster.
I was in the last 4 minutes of that run. Out in the frontier where I had never gone before. 8 weeks ago I couldn't even run one minute without feeling like I would collapse.
My body was screaming at me. It was humid, so each breath was a fight. Sweat was everywhere, including burning my eyes. So. Much. Discomfort. And downright pain.
With every step, my mind screamed "Quit now! You've already done more than you did before! You can quit now! You've already done more than you could before. You've done enough. Go back to the comfort zone!"
I wanted to be anywhere but in my body. Parts were starting to chafe, muscles I didn't even know I had were screaming, "We can't do this! Settle! Go back! Quit! Comfort zone! PLEASE!"
Then a knowing clicked in:
"These are the most important 2 minutes of your life.
These two minutes will take you further than you've ever gone before."
These two minutes differentiate You, now, from the You of yesterday - the one that couldn't run a mile, couldn't commit to a goal.
These two minutes, when conquered, cement a new Who in every cell of your Being.
These two minutes make it or break it. The next time I think about lacing up my sneakers, I'll be thinking either, "You're a quitter," or "You're a beast woman who eats miles for breakfast".
The hardest 2 minutes are the most important. They're the 2 minutes that create the new map of Who You Are.
There are "2 minutes" all over our days.
--Showing up for our kids when the wall of exhaustion, and "I cannot do this one more minute" hits like a ton of hopeless bricks.
--Getting back into the dating world, after we feel we've turned over every rock, met every possible partner out there, loved deeply, been hurt, broken, and are too tender to try again.
--Putting ourselves out there once again as an entrepreneur after we've launched and "failed," stared into the void of "No one cares what I have to say".
--Speaking up powerfully at work even after being passed over again and again for a promotion, after having other people take our ideas without giving credit, after being belittled, talked down to, shouted over, or ignored until we just can't imagine showing up one more freakin' day to this toxic mess...
Those are the last two minutes. The ones that shape Who We Are. Those are the last two minutes that cement our character into our very cellular being.
Do we rise above the pain, when every cell is screaming "Quit now! Get out! You can't take another minute of this?"
Do we show up for just TWO MORE MINUTES as the person we KNOW we are in our core? The one who takes the birds' eye view, stays present to the moment, and becomes a divine channel?
The last two minutes are the most important of our lives. Who will you be when your inner critics are screaming "Quit! You're not cut out for this!"
What will you say to your mind when it tries to shove you back into the comfort zone?
(Who DID finish those last 2 minutes and created a new level of endurance for myself, mentally and physically. Woo hoo!)
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